Long story short, someone I trust called, told me that it is sure that she hooked up with some guy, after she broke up within a week I guess.. before when there was just rumors about it that i wouldn't believe, I had to ask her and she denied that she did (I wasn't stalking, but people cared to tell me so i can find a reason to move on), I just told her that I need to know the reasons and if this was true so i can move on, and she is telling me to move on cause its not fair on me to wait for her to decide if she wants this relationship (which makes me look like a puss)
I don't think she would even tell me if she did it.
But now that am sure of it... how will or what to say when I confront her if she texts me whether asking indirectly for reconciliation or fixing things?
Specially after this stabbing news... and that I want to know the real reasons she dumped me for?
I consider it as betrayal, am not looking for reconciliation at all cause I only see her as a lover, it just seems am still blinded with my love for her !
I know I sound gay, but I'am really heartbroken, but as much as this hurting me, I want a way out of this pain !
I was more attached and in love with her.
I know i should ignore and move on, but its easy to say, I think it would make it easier for me to, if I confront her if she texts one day, that the convo might not end as she will be defensive about everything.
I don't want to be rude, nor nice, nor an asshole.. I just want to let things out.. that I don't know what they are into getting the truth from her about everything so i can close that case, move on, forgive and be happy !
(I do believe in second chances but for now I don't know if I do)