After one year passed, I was constantly picking on him and starting fights because he still did not establish himself (30 y/o) nor did his career progress (shit happens). I verbally abused, nagged, and grew more impatient. Loving words were not enough and I couldn't live with the unknown meet date. He does earn less in currency in comparison and I don't know his financial obligations.
My negativity turned into him giving me the silent treatment twice in the month of May and July. We talked during those months, but only by message at times. After 2nd ST, he said "we would rebuild the foundation and start as friends, then work up to a relationship again." But, 2 weeks after this was said, he suddenly decides that we should move our separate ways cuz "I will never change my attitude and I caused damage to him, that is unforgettable" (during my rage time). He said "all feelings were washed away". He also said that "he needed time to forget the trauma" I caused n then contradicts! Y claim to work up to soulmates again n then call quits. WTF? I feel mislead the past 2 weeks n that I was just being punished for my wrongs. HE also said "let destiny decide". SOme crap!
He said he will be apart of my life and support me, but only as friends. That part is sincere, but I DO NOT want him in my life if we will never get back together. We had a very romantic, loving relationship that cannot be forgotten. I cannot bring myself to block him yet cuz I want to save our bond and can't give up!