For past year I've been cutting myself up that I let my dignity go by constantly phoning and texting the ex for a few months.. I'm mortified that allowed myself to do that to just get abuse from the ex.. yet more I called and texted the worse he was becoming with me.. I wasn't thinking straight and I look back and feel ashamed.. Suppose I done it so he would talk to me and not forget me while he was rubbing other females into my face about how many he slept with while I was in bits and heart was breaking and in ways I still break down and cry not because of being dumped but because I was desperate enough to do it.. I feel stupid and I look back and feel bitter for what he done to me as well.. he knew my heart was breaking but instead rubbed salt into me and treated me as nothing.. he even said only way I'd sleep with you again as if you paid me.. and things like if rather be with them than you.. them being females he found on dating sites.. I can't get passed that I turned myself into a headcase in desperation to keep someone who never loved or liked me..
anyone else ever done this or just me?
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You can't really surround yourself with someone who believes that "you are his toy". Not only is he a complete joke of a human being. But, you deserve better.
I'm speaking from recent experience. Just yesterday, I called my ex out on the numerous amount of mindgames she has been playing over the months. I gave her an ultimatum of if she didn't want me to contact her ever again, I would respect her wishes. She responded by saying "Please do not message me again."
At a certain point, some people just can't be reasoned with and you need to decide that your self worth is greater than being with someone who treats you so poorly.1