Hi everyone. I was with my bf for 6 months long distance. He really believed in our relationship and always said how he has a good feeling about us and thinks we will last. He was the first guy I dated in 4 years since my last bf and I thought maybe he was the one.
We had our first fight a month into our relationship which was partially resolved. I then went backpacking in Europe for 3 months and it made long distance harder due to the larger time difference and bad wifi signals. We ended up fighting heaps partly coz he didn't want to resolve our issues but I wanted to talk things through rather than pretend everything was ok. Our arguments dragged on for 2 weeks! I still had 2 months left of my trip and I wanted to enjoy myself but I wasn't happy so I broke it off. He knew I had been thinking about ending things with him. At first he would argue back saying "is this really how you want to end things?". But during our final argument, I told him I wanted to end it he just said "if that's what you want".
I deleteed him off fb or else I would have been tempted to look at his profile or message him. I emailed him a week later to apologize for the abrupt break up (it occurred during his uni exam period) and never heard from him. A month later I emailed him to ask for my stuff back but he refused calling me selfish and that he won't put up with my selfishness. I also realized that he had blocked me on fb at some point.
We broke up 4 months ago and after coming back home from my travels I thought I would be ok. I still miss him a lot. I visited him before heading to Europe and that was the last time I saw him. When we spoke while I was travelling it was always through Skype calling not video messaging. It's hard knowing that all the fighting and the breakup happened through voice calling rather than in person or video calling.
I'm still struggling coming to terms with the break up since it wasn't face to face etc. Any advice?