Anyway so his roommates who I made friends with went out last night for one of their birthdays. So my ex invited to me to join them, I was shocked but I still went. I asked one of my friends to join so it wouldn't be weird. So we drove to his place and damnn... everything felt normal between us.
As the night went on, me and my ex laid in bed and actually talked the entire night catching up on things and talking about the good times we had together. It killed me inside because I rememeberd why I liked him so much and the pain he put me through when he ended things.
He told me how I'm the only one he's comfortable around, and how no matter what happens we will always be friends. But in my heart it kind of killed when he said that because a part of me doesn't want to be just friends with him. But I know with our busy schedules it could never work, not anymore. So when I left, he kissed me goodbye but not the quick peck kisses but the ones that every girl likes to be kissed. It was like out of movie.
I know after today, he's not going to talk to me and it's going to be another couple of months since I hear or see him again. So I don't know what I'm asking for her, I guess I needed to rant... I just know that I will never fully get over him, and I need too. But I don't know how since I have tried everything after we broke up.
Or this a sign that me and him have another chance and take things slow and see where this whole friendship thing goes or this a sign that I should walk away while I still have the chance?