i then met this other guy who became my bf in high school we dated for a good year. Then one day i ran into the 1st guy and had a good long chat while waiting for the bus. It hit me, i like him, we're great together. I know its bad but me and 1st hit it off from then without my bf knowing (my bf is amazing though and i love our relationship).
this fling became an on and off thing and eventually i asked him why he won't push things forward and he said 'well because you have a bf'. I knew already i was doing wrong. time went on we drifted apart again and i continued my life with my bf.
i thought i had patched up my feelings for this 1st guy but i haven't. Things continuously keep reminding me of me and him. this is within a timeframe of 3 years! it is unfair to my bf because i do love what he (my bf) and i share with each other plus we have a kid :( and It is to a point where i check fb to see how 1st guy is doing etc
I've been contemplating if i should tell 1st guy how i feel even though we haven't spoken for quite some time now. Is this appropriate? Please tell me what should i do? Need some opinions its driving me crazy im such a bad person but i can't control my emotions