Here's the back story, I met my ex in 8th grade he was the first long term crush I've ever had, I Had no real friends in middle school and I was bullied all through out my middle school life as well, so my ex was my only friend. I had to move schools because the bullying got too intense. After 5 months he broke up with me saying that it was his parents fault. So in my whole 9th grade year we talked as friends, a couple months later he confessed that the reason that he broke up with me was because he thought that I would leave him for someone else and that he regrets breaking up with me. Ever since then I've been trying to get back with him but he made the descision to date in college because he wasn't mature enough for a realationship. I also really messed up when he told me that he " still had some feelings for me" and I took that as " we should go out again" so I tried that and he tells me that I'm like a sister to him. After that we would argue all the time about getting back together. On the day that we last talked, I asked him about staying as friends or just not talking at all. He got upset and said that I always bring this up and that I need to make my descision now. I told him that I couldn't make a decision because I still had feelings for him. He told me to message him saying that "I want to still be friends"or just don't message him at all and he'll understand. I tell him that I can't make a desicion, this is unfair and that he should just do whatever because I didn't want to talk then. He never messaged me again after that but he hasn't blocked me on any social media.
Do you think that I should just contact him?
Or should I try to move on?