My first love just broke up with me. He was my first everything. He had promised countless times that we would be together forever and get married. He really seemed genuine (introduced me to his family and friends).
This breakup came as such a shock and I'm still confused as to why he seemed so angry at me like it was all my fault. Admittedly, I did contribute a lot to the detriment of the relationship (I have depression), but I don't think I'm the only one to blame. I really did try. It hurts so much that someone who claimed to have loved me turned so cold so fast.
I'm having thoughts of suicide and even making preparations to hang, but I'm too scared to go through with it right now (fear of physical pain and hope that a miracle happens). Everything is sort of on pause, I guess. I don't want to tell anyone I actually know how I'm feeling because they'll just freak out and have me locked up. Can anyone relate? How do I get through this?
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Sweetie, you're going to be okay!! Killing yourself will only bring tremendous pain to your entire family. Listen to me when I say that your ex is NOT WORTH DYING FOR. Your life has meaning - it has a purpose - and one day you'll be able to get past these feelings and you will feel so freaking strong and confident and amazing. You deserve to feel like that and I promise that if you just hold on for a little while longer you'll be able to make it through this. This might sound crazy, but objectively speaking, you should actually be glad that he left - it means he's not the right guy for you. Clearly he wasn't willing to stick around which should help you realize that you deserve a man WAY better than him!
Please don't harm yourself. Your friends and family love you and one day you'll find a man who truly loves you for who you are and is patient and willing to help you through your depression. You have such a bright future ahead of you, filled with love and success and great friends and children, so please stick around and help yourself discover how strong you really are!!!2