We stupidly were getting closer again, but I had some reservations. I was so confused so I looked through his phone one night when he was asleep, and found some awful things which I wish I had never seen, including a lot of naked photos of the girl he cheated on me with. I found out he is still sleeping with her even though he had told me a while ago he had stopped.
After seeing this I was so angry and upset that I ended up waking him up and pretty much attacking him. I kneed him in the balls and punched him multiple times.
He was really angry about me hitting him, which is understandable. I don't think it was ok and I wouldn't do it again. He basically kicked me out in the middle of the night and we both said we didn't want to talk to each other any more and we haven't since.
I feel so disappointed with myself because before I did that I was the bigger person, I hadn't done anything wrong and he knew that. Now I feel like he's just as mad at me as I am at him, and he probably thinks I deserved everything he did to me. I don't think what I did was ok... but it was not nearly as bad as how he treated me.
If you treated someone like absolute crap and they eventually snapped one day, what would you think? I hate the idea that he might think his actions were reasonable because I'm 'obviously crazy'. I hate that he might just be like 'oh well she was a crazy bitch, good thing I got rid of her'.
Most Helpful Guy
What you did was okay, he emotionally attacked you, betrayed your trust and then tried to repeat it all, snapping under those circumstances is only human
Most Helpful Girl
You're both wrong. Just don't be around people who bring out the worst in you. I say this without spite, as I slapped a boyfriend once when he wouldn't stop fighting with other men every time we'd go out. Once, we'd had 3-4 discussions in the past on how his behavior was ridiculous, I slapped him when he tried to start a fight back up after it was finished.
I felt horrible, like you, and there's no excuse... The ultimate lesson I learned was not to try to be with someone who brings out the worst in you with their horrible behavior.