I broke up with my ex about a year ago he was the first person I've actually been in love with and he really broke my heart.
I was left truly devastated but friend's kept telling me in a year you will be over it. I've dated other people in the meantime but my thoughts always go back to him.
But now I have so much hate for him it's a horrible feeling I've never hated anyone in my life when I'm busy I don't think about him but when I'm alone I just breakdown. I just want to ask does the feelings ever go away for a first love? Can you remember feeling this way?
I was thinking of going to see someone professional but I don't know if it will help.
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It was 37 years ago. That's a long time to hold a grudge so I don't.
I remember the day. I remember the moment, I broke up with her. It still bothers me but I don't feel sadness for what it could have been. I feel sadness for her. She missed out on the greatest guy she will ever have because she thought she could get away with. Well, she has her reward. A lifetime without me.
He doesn't deserve you. Whether he shows it or not the regret will hang on him.
Contact him only for your child and make this about your child. He really fucked up but he's still a father but not a husband by any means.
You are 30 years younger than me and I still feel "viable" as a potential mate so you've got it going on! Somebody much more suited for you will come along. Be patient. Be yourself. He's obviously not the one for you.2