After we talked on Tuesday the first thing I did was see my doctor on Wednesday. He ran some test for Diabetes and my testosterone. He called me back this afternoon and said my Cortisol Level was high. I still have to do further testing but I did some further research and basically after reading this came across this online article. My problem it had nothing to do with the chemistry between you and I. It had to do with me medically, basically my cortisol level and how it was affecting my libido and causes erectile dysfunction. Either way chemistry or medically, it was kind of selfish to not talk to me about it and I felt like you turned your back on me at a time when I needed you most. This whole thing has been a nightmare for me. This is most stressful thing I have ever gone through, more than when I had to drop out of college, and more that when my parents got divorced when I was a kid.
Maybe I was/am being selfish. With me never having sex before I wasn't satisfied and it turned me off. Yes I should have talked to you about it but I did n't know how to bring that up. I haven't had much experience in dating or anything. You were only the 2nd relationship I've been in. I don't see how I've turned my back on you though. I'm sorry you're going through hell with this. I'm sorry I'm causing you so much pain. I've never intended to do such a th ing. Things happen in life. I've been through divorces and dealt with a broken heart. It sucks but life doesn't stop. I'm sorry but I stand by my decisio n. I'm not trying to kick you while you're down. I'm glad you went to the doctor and got checked out and found the problem. I pray that is the only thing wrong with you. I don't know what else to say but I'm sorry.
at least now you know what your biggest priority in a relationship is
Part 3 is in an update
I know sex isn't the biggest priority in a relationship. But it does have a lot to do in one. Maybe if I was more experienced it wouldn't be a big deal, but I'm not and I wasn't satisfied. I don't want to live a life of what if. Again I'm sorry.
The question still stands
Should I try and maintain a friendship with her?
I apologize for my question being so long