I called her on it after I said we were done. I said a lot of hurtful things. My selfish goal of trying to make her feel the pain I was going through. Afterward she told me she felt she hadn't loved me for quite some time. Yet she had been saying and doing things every so often that really showed she felt love was there and we were working back to it. Even us sharig what I thouhht was a very promising kiss as we agreed to a break. Today she says it was her just simply hoping it was real and that it obviously wasn't since I was saying the things I had. I feel like a fool, not knowong what to believe. I know what I want to believe, and that being when i slipped up and got distant, we just waited too long to fix it. But she was adamant thats not true.
I feel I play the part of the fool regardless. This is the definition of hell.