Most Helpful Guy
You could try and talk to him.
The sex with your ex. is not cheating. It's rape. You said no. Your ex did not stop.
Go to the police and get that a**hole charged. Especially because you were scared for your life.
Most Helpful Girl
I think you need to give relationships altogether a break for a while, and focus on healing yourself. Maybe even getting counseling. You moved on way too quick from an abusive relationship and you're really not able to fully commit to anyone at this point.