It has been a year since we broke up and I have not really talked to her since then although we are in the same group of friends. I see her everyday, and whenever i am by myself, my mind still tends to drift to our past and how good it was until she dropped me without a single word and never gave me the reason why. She just left like she didn't care. I was bitter, angry and betrayed by her for a while, we were best friends for a long time and I felt like she would never do this to me. But no matter how much I hate her, deep down I know that I still can't let her go because memories of our good times keep coming back no matter how hard I try to distract myself. We eventually talked it out last month after it blew up and although I ended up accepting her apology I am still. so. bitter about it deep down but i cannot show it. Its been a year and honestly I don't really have a trust for anyone anymore because the one person I thought I was going to be best friends with even if the relationship failed destroyed my views. I don't feel like I will ever be good enough for anyone. I realized that in life there will always be one person better than me and when that person shows up, she will leave me for the better guy and i will be alone by myself again. That is my biggest reason why I fear relationships. At this point, should I even give relationships a second chance? I've been feeling like trash for the past year, and I do not know if i ever want to pursue in future relationships if they ever come.
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Sounds like you do.
Do some writing. It's therapeutic.0