Anyway, so we talk on the phone and organised a date. I was aware that his ex-girlfriend had really hurt him when she cheated on him. And I made a sincere promise to be honest, trustworthy and someone he could rely on. He told me he loved me and I asked how he knew. He explained that love wasn't a game to him, that if he said it he meant it, and he gained my trust. I hadn't yet said it because I wanted to be certain of my feelings.
We ended up meeting earlier than planned and spent the day in the local park. He kissed my head, we sat on the grounds cuddling, and talking. But he respected my boundaries and always asked about how comfortable I was.
On the second date, he brought lunch and we ate in the city, by the water. We talked and laughed. He ended up kissing me for the first time. He was always complimenting me, saying how beautiful I was, that I was cute. He asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. We strolled back to the train station holding hands and I gave him a peck, and accidentally said "Love you, miss you, bye." I thought I saw his face drop.
He sent me a message later and seemed off. Told me he talk to me in the morning, which I already knew what he'd say. The next morning he sent me a message saying that it had been an amazing day and he loved being with me, But thoughts of his ex still haunt him. And that he's not ready for a relationship. That he was crying while writing it.
I wrote him back today, Told him I loved him and he says he wants to be friends, he doesn't have time for a gf. And he still isn't over what his ex did.
Sorry this is so long, but help!