I wasn't pressed to keep him on the phone. I wasn't nervous as I am normally am.
I wasn't studdering it wasn't anxiety.
I use to get that way, I loved him so much and didn't wanna be with out his love, and attention.
I was very attracted to him I basically lost myself in him, to where I would freeze, and became shy...insecure well I would always fix myself when he's around play with my hair etc... All the things a girl who adores a man would do.
Place myself around him, hang on his every word...you know crushing badly.
However, taking a step back from things allowed me to see the man he really was. It allowed me to feel the not so kind words allowed me to see what it was all about. I thought he was just straight up and don't bite his tongue. Cause I couldn't see that he thought of me in a bad way. My heart wouldn't allow me to feel his words that way.
Hey the bottom line is no matter how much you try, you can't please everybody, so, love who you are, how you look, ur height your weight. Your skin color, cause the people that matter don't mind, and the people that mind, don't matter !!!!..Don't waste your time chasing or changing for no one!. There are people who love you just the Way u are. I realize that today!. I hope all you who has been broken realiser this to one day!