Most Helpful Girl
You sound almost exactly like my ex, so I felt like I should comment because I'm going through what would happen if you took the other road. As it pains me to say it, you made the right choice. It doesn't feel like it I'm sure because love is an amazing feeling. I love him so much and he loves me, but I know he felt suffocated at times because he knows he can see us growing old together, only he hasn't gotten to travel yet, been with as many girls as he wanted. He's stayed with me because of the love, the comfort in having someone know you from front to back, be able to let your guard down, having someone love you and accept you for all your flaws.. but now he is slowy resenting me. It's become such a hot mess that we had to take time off because he knew he didn't want to cheat on me but he wanted to try out other women, I was heart broken by this but I let it happen. Months later we started rekindling the relationship because we are basically best friends, but that insecurity of being in a serious relationship was still there. Basically what I hope you get out of in this opinion in what has taken me more than a year and a half to figure out is that I needa let him go, and he's going to do what he needs to do. He's traveling to Thailand in September for a year, and I wish him all the best, if we decide to start new when he returns and we haven't moved on, I'd love that but only time would tell. Just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to force a relationship.
Most Helpful Guy
I don't think you are being honest with yourself about your desires or motivations.