Most Helpful Guy
You're hurting, and it really really sucks that you went through that. I'm sorry. He sounds like a real asshole.
However, there isn't much you can do to really get back at him, or to even the score that is. He has broken it off and he hurt you. Humans have a tendency to never blame themselves when they mess up, and find a reason for the mistake so they don't feel bad. That is what your boyfriend has done, and unfortunately it's probably making the situation worse for you as you want a real apology. Unfortunately, unless you somehow make him realize his fault, which probably won't happen, you won't get that apology.
This is where you have to help yourself now. You're on a boat without a paddle and your boyfriend left you there. You can either lay there and let yourself weep and stay trapped out there, or you can use your hands and begin the very difficult process of paddling back to shore, to your life. Revenge while only bring you out further into the sea.
It's going to be tough, and I can imagine you're depressed by the whole situation, but you have to push him aside. He's no longer in your life, you're now the only one in control of it. You need to take charge and help yourself get better. You can't have your feelings linger on what someone else has done to you. You have to push forward, and push him out of your mind.1THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE
Most Helpful Girl
Along with 'I lost on my investment,' here, dear, you Never really got your closure which is Why this Chapter is still an open page "Look book" an dneeds to be closed once and for all.
I do Not see any hope of getting back together, however, with everything you have just said, makes sense to me. You need to sit down and send this Bozo an email and pour out your heart right from the start and believe me... you will feel so much better that you did this.
Good luck. xx0THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE