He started putting up these walls and making all these excuses to never have time for me. Everything in his life had set days and times, except me. I was literally being worked in, by appointment. I know he wasn't cheating, and I completely trust him. I know it's really love he's feeling for me.
I talked to one of his exes. She was another "epic" for him. She said the same thing happened to her, that he's so afraid of getting hurt, of being abandoned, that he once he's in love, he does this. His poor self image was really starting to bring me down and affect me too. But I just didn't realize any of this until he got locked up.
I don't know how long he'll be gone. It could be just a few more weeks, or a few years. He's also in another state (extradition), and I can't afford to pay the phone call fees. But even when we do talk, I've started to realize that I just don't feel that spark anymore. It's not because he's gone. It's because his abscense has only made me realize that I was already losing feelings for him because of the distance he created in his fear.
I know there is no "easy way", and that he's going to get hurt. But is there a better, or best way to tell him? I love him, and I still want to be here for him, if he wants that. I know that I could be very happy with him in the future if he could just get past these self defeating thoughts that plague him. I just don't want to see him sink further, or take this rejection as some kind of proof that he's "not worth it". He's actually pretty amazing. But now that I've realized all this, I can't go back to how it was, and I want to move forward with my life.
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This isn't really a situation I've been first l close to before but I think it's important to keep his sentence out of things. If you feel this way I would at least talk to him about it and give him the chance to change. You never know. He may want too.
It will be difficult in jail of course but I think before you jump to a conclusion you at least need to tell him how you feel and give him a chance.
As for his sentence, I think a lot of relationships suffer and break because of this. You just have to work out of this is one worth waiting for. There is of course always the opportunity to get together again after his sentence. Especially if you share a mutual agreement.0