Anywho, this other guy, is much older than me which I'm always attracted to. He's an alpha male and a flirt which I know isn't good. I'm not delusional about him I know I would never leave my husband for him because it would not work in the real world. I just want to have my cake and eat it too. This guy however is amazing and makes me feel passionate it's so intoxicating. He often drops conversations with other girls for me and usually seeks me out in groups. We went through a rough period where he didn't talk to me for 2 months and he seemed angry with me. He seems angry whenever I get too carried away with conversation with other men in our school. When I tried to cut it off with him because guilt, he seemed Hurt and that's when he ignored me for like 2 months. But he came back around and seeked me out.
This last semester we have gotten so close and he's gone out of his way to give me rides and see me. He won't commit to full on visiting outside of school hours anymore possibly because I denied him to meet when his girlfriend was out of town and when he wanted to come to my house one time "to drop my book off"
I have a daughter and would never subject her to my affair. I don't want to hurt my husband or my daughter but the passion as overall feel good feeling with him has been gone for most of the relationship. He treats me so well but I often wonder if I just stayed on a rebound relationship for wayyy to long. I constantly feel trapped and he never takes me seriously when I say I want to leave and guilts me with our baby but I can't get this other guy out of my he