I've averaged between one and three hours of sleep a night over the last month and a half. I've written down and re-written what I wanted to tell her probably a dozen times already, but attempted no contact. Don't want to come off as desperate or something, but the hard truth is I still love her, even if she concluded life was taking us in different directions. I found a way it could have worked and have no way now to tell her.
This break-up is kicking my ass...
Most Helpful Girl
Yeah, I have. Things ended between us when he cheated on me.
I had a LOT to tell him. I'd spend hours going over it with friends, usually over drinks. Or if we were hungover from said drinks. What I wanted the most was to just talk to him, let him know what a terrible person he was and to ask where I went wrong. what I didn't give him that led him to cheating on me. If not that, I wanted him to own up to being a complete ass. That went on for a few months in the summer, though it continued in my mind for around a year.
I never got a chance to tell him how I felt. Shortly after I had mostly gotten over it, he messaged me on FB apologizing. Honestly, it didn't feel that great. It was nice to hear him owning up to behaving terribly, but what did that give me aside from a teeny bit of redemption? Nothing. It didn't take away all the tears I had cried, drinks I drank, etc.. The pain was the same. It didn't erase the past.
All I really said in response to his apology was that yeah, it was a rough time but I'd prefer not to be friends. Case closed.
Most Helpful Guy
Yes, I wanted to tell her that her "Master Resilience" training was a complete and utter failure, and that if her instructors knew how she treated me after completed said course, they would be extremely disappointed, ashamed, and probably would have revoked her grades. Also that she's a coward. Questions?