You said you loved me. You said you wanted marriage. You said you were the guy for me, and I was the girl for you. You broke it off. You lost feelings for me. Now everything is all about you, and nothing is about me, anymore. I wanted an us, and all you gave me was, a separate you and I. Maybe it was all about you in the end, and nothing you ever said was about really about me. Maybe you don't know the meaning of forever. Maybe you just lack all of the qualities I fell in love with you for. I thought you were dedicated, honest, responsible and sweet. Those were all the characteristics I fell in love with you for. Now I'm not so sure. You put me through a dead end drive. And you called me up one day and said, "hey here is the cliff. I'm pushing you over. goodbye, and have nice jump. Maybe you'll find some of your dreams on your way down." Thanks for being everything that you said you were not going to be. Thanks for ruining my dreams of us. Thanks for making me feel a month of sadness instead of happiness. Thanks for giving me yet another crappy birthday to look back on. Like you said, you'd always love me. I guess your not as honest, nor as sweet, as I thought you were. You ended up being an entirely different person then the guy I fell in love with. The guy I fell in love with would have never done those things to me. Thanks for nothing. Thanks for the emptiness, thanks for the incomplete, thanks for everything you couldn't be, and thanks for never being sweet. Your awful.
I didn't capitalize my name, because that is how small you make me feel, and so stupid at the same time for still loving you.
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First off I'm sorry that you feel this way. We have all been there.
Please don't send this letter to him. Think of it as something you did and didn't share with him... I wrote constantly and my ex knows that. I have shared some of my "poems" with him and they shocked him to the core (not always in a good way) and I know, he knows I still write about him. But I will never send it to him. Because when I look back, I'm like dam! That's how I felt and I compare it to how much I've changed now and that makes me happy that I never shared that with him because he doesn't need to know my pain and how I feel. Because if he cared to, he would still be around.
I learnt that during a break up, you have to LOVE YOURSELF before you expect someone to love you. Your ex probably already knows that you are sad. You don't need to confirm it for him and stroke his ego, so he knows that someone other there is thinking about him. Please put yourself first at this time. YOU OWE HIM NOTHING! Not a call or a return call, nothing. You owe it to YOURSELF to know your worth. This may take time and the more time you spend appreciating what you have, the more you'll think less of what you don't have. "Time heals all" and "it is better to have loved, than to not love at all"... There are people in life that are brought to you, who are not meant for you to keep. These people are the ones that teach you the lessons in life. You may not feel like it now, but your a survivor and this will only make you stronger.
Learn from this relationship and don't make baggage for yourself with it comes to the next relationship.
I hope this helped. Good luck to you.
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