Most Helpful Girl
Forget this loser here, dear. You know what he is all about, you know that he will never change, and the thing is Now, you should be smiling to yourself that someone else has your yesterday's trash.
It's quite Normal to 'Miss my ex but hate him too.' You are Not alone, believe me. But you need to lick your war wounds and remember the hell this bozo put you through and that some other girl has to be the one now to jump through the hell or high water hoops for him.
No, don't do anything as 'Extreme' as That. You would only be putting yourself through more mayhem and you know what That is like.
However, it doesn't hurt to find someone to go out with, when you are ready and ready to love again, and show him to the world and especially where this clown may be one day and... show him as well You are happy now and on your way.
Good luck. xx