Most Helpful Guy
What you aren't even 18 yet, why do even want to be with a married man, if you want mature guys go for guys who are in their 20's or late 20's but are single. Was your love one sided or you both loved each other, I am asking because your post doesn't mention it accurately. Okay even if you both loved each other, so in that case he didn't say anything because right now he may be unable to make up his mind, but I think it's highly unlikely that he'll leave his wife to be with you.
Most Helpful Girl
Take this time, and make sure he doesn't come around any more at your door to stir up any more toil and trouble. Take this time, for time does heal all wounds, to lick your war wounds and do some serious soul searching.
It's hard when you learn that someone you have fallen in love with has a wife and baggage. many times, he never leaves them and you end up being the one who was just the side dish he thought he could have his sweet cake and it two with.
There's no button you can press to make the hurt go away. And no button as well to make those '9 months' and thank God no more counting, to go away but eventually Will... Fade away in time.
I'm so sorry for your pain. When you feel better, begin your beguine slowly and make sure you can prove this next time Around... Who he really is.
Good luck. xx