My ex and I were together for almost 4 years, he dumped me 7 months ago. He just said that he doesn't want a relationship anymore, out of the blue. I've been his girlfriend while his life was messy and hard, while he didn't have anybody else, I was there for him. As soon as he started his new job and his life got better, he dumped me. He didn't need me anymore, now he has money, friends, fuck buddies, parties and busy days. He didn't have any of it while we were together. I was basically used and tossed away like a toy because he didn't need me anymore. Of course he tried staying friends, playing the nice guy role, but I rejected it. We haven't talked in months (because I ignored him) but I hear from mutual friends how he is happy now and how his life is much better now. He is dead for me. Literally that person is someone I don't know anymore and I despice him. I am over him in a romantic way (I don't ever want to see him again) but I still think about him often and it makes me very angry. I keep feeling this hate towards him and I just can't erase it. I don't wish him well. I wish he gets so screwed up, that everyone leaves him drowning in depression, that no girl wants to give him a minute of her day. I wish he hits the bottom so hard and then remembers me. I wish karma slaps him in his disrespectful cheek. I have never hated anyone, this is a totally new feeling for me. I have other exes and I NEVER felt any of this towards any of them, even though they also did some nasty things to me. I feel like this feeling is never gonna end. People say that I will "get over him" in time and that I will be able to be polite to him and remember the happy memories, but that bs just seems so impossible! I don't want to remember happy moments I want to remember what he did to me for the rest of my life! That little worm doesn't deserve any empathy nor forgivness. Not that he even asked for it, he never even apolagized.
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sorry for what you've been through
there are some people who'll only be there for you as long as you have something they need. when you no longer serve a purpose to them, they'll leave , this life. sometimes you lose and sometimes you win , and this doesn't mean the end of the you story , but it mean that you move on to a new chapter of your life and you won't find the way out unless free yourself from the anger and hate
what's the purpose of keeping the pain alive?
nothing except replaying a painful memory over and over in your head is a form of self-abuse
you've been used but not because you're a foolish girl or bad , but because you have a pure heart
It was a tough thing, but toughest lesson because nobody gets through life without challenges and disruptions, but it's these trials that make you stronger and eventually move toward future opportunities
Make peace with yourself and your past. when you heal your thoughts, you heal the health of your happiness. So stop focusing on old problems and things you don’t want in your future. the more you think about them, the more you attract what you fear into your everyday experiences – you become your own worst enemy
life is beautiful outside (what are you waiting for)?1