I haven't dated anyone since we broke up, I'm still trying to pick up the pieces of my dignity and get my career together. I don't know I'm just venting, the holidays are coming up and I know I'm going to miss her even more when those days come around.
I was sort of a jerk to her, but she wasn't perfect either. At times I still find myself rationalizing why break up happened even though it's been over for almost a year. Sometimes I feel like the most worthless piece of trash who should of just been content with what he had, but instead I was stressed and unhappy and felt like my life was moving nowhere.