I did consider asking her for "a break" to figure things out on my end... but I could never muster up the courage because I didn't want to hurt her. Instead I intentionally sabotaged the relationship to purposely make her lose interest in me so it would be easier for her to move on. In a twisted a way I acted like a jerk because I really loved her...
Anyway I was not all surprised when she broke up with me, but I told her "there is a part of me that will always love you". That was true. However she put down the axe HARD. She wanted absolutely no communication, friendship, etc. She brutally stuck to that. I can understand that would help her move on. However after spending a year with her I would think she let me down with gentler hands.
Anyway I've had flings with four different women since we split. They were nice distractions but very fleeting. I just wish to God I could have at least a nice conversation with my ex. I did send her a final email about my true feelings about 3 months ago. I said I understood why she did what she did. I also said she might not ever fathom how much I missed our friendship. I concluded that it would be my final message... and it has been. Never got a response.