I haven't seen my boyfriend (now ex) for 3 weeks.
I was feeling insecure about something and instead if reassuring me, he more or less laughed.
He also sent me a message saying he is "fed up" of my behaviour, (I've done nothing wrong) that he doesn't want to be with me and to end it... So I did although it hurt me too much cause of Pride.
we have sent each other messages since mostly abusive on his part telling me to die and F off (this was also before the break)
He sent me messages last week saying I am a disgusting person, and that he would never have a girl like me... Hurtful things.
in the past, we have argued he has blocked me off his phone/Whatapp only to unblock me and start a convo again then working through things.
he hasn't initaated the convo since last week, although responds to my messages etc.
Last night I was I was cleaning when I found a pair of his trousers... It triggered me off and I and went CRAZY.
I called him and he called me back (this has been the first time I called him) his signal went and he phoned back and he went insane saying he has no reason to apoligize, he won't give me any ans and that he will never change. He was also screaming at passer bys to F off and he said he was doing that as I was making him angry by crying.
im a typical woman and felt I deserved an explanation for this treatment.
I've been an amazing girlfriend to him, looked after and supported him emotionally. My aunt died last week, I told him about it and he said he doesn't care or give a shit.
He also told me in the past to set myself on fire and kill myself. Last night all the anger came out of me. The verbal abuse I had off him over the months blew ME up.
today (shamefully) I sent him about 13 messages asking (begging) him to meet up with me as I wanted closure, and I tried to call him x3 times.
he told me to F off etc and blocked me. I know he will unblock me again as my male friend believes this is all a power trip.
i feel so worn out, drained and empty.
My self esteem is at an all time low.
my question is, do you feel I've over reacted? And how do I get over this. Thanks x
I know I over reacted pushing for an answer and meeting but all I wanted was to move on.
This man has had all my time, attention. I've been honest and loyal. When things like this have happened before, i held it together this time I went berserk.
Regardless of what was said/done is