Weeks ago, i sent many posts about it, but now i hope this is the last one.
3 weeks ago, i got upset that my guy (now my ex) didn't contact me or sent me a little message in the second day, we agreed to call each second day. Then, he called me, i told him that i was just insecure, then he asked me about our relationship, i told him that i was fine even if it wasn't perfect, i asked him also and he told me that he didn't feel secure to give a good relationship, going to the point of telling me that it was better to break up and remain as friends. I called him just when he was leaving work.
I got scared, but i didn't neither encourage the idea nor oppose to it. I asked him if he liked me, that with that it was enough because i like him as well, also that i wanted him to be happy. Then he backed up and we agreed to talk it out in person the next day. At that moment, i went through a depression, a deep one.
The next day, i resolved to ask him if he didn't want just a fling with me. He called me telling me that it was impossible to him to see me, that we could see each other on Friday or the next day. Nevertheless, i decided to solve it by phone, I though at that moment that everything was solved.
However, the next days started to feel not so good: the contact through cell started to wither (even i tried to give him an option to solve our long distance), he cancelled in some way our dates, i congratulated him for his birthday, and he called me, telling both our good and bad things of the week, he was happy at the phone. After that silence. He told me that the next week he was going to work a lot.
On the night of Friday, i decided to call him just to know how he was going. He didn't answer. In the morning (yesterday) i sent him a message, neither he answered. Then in the afternoon after trying to call him again, to which he didn't answer, i give him a final message.
It hurt me a lot, but now i cannot contact him anymore.
i feel this is my fault, i showed him insecurity just for something so small like not calling me the next second day, although he showed me his frustration of not seeing each other more frequently. i fear that i scarred him, and that i am not a good girlfriend,
I haven't done anything like That since That day, but it has been difficult to move on specially because I haven't received a good enclosure.