Finally I asked him why he was contacting me. He said he just wanted to see how I was and stuff. I told him how much he hurt me and he told me he was sorry. That he hadn't forgotten me and he just needed time to himself. He also told me he loved me but I didn't believe a single word he said. I told him I would never get back together with him because he would probably treat me the same.
I ended the conversation saying I wanted a man who put my needs first and put me first. He hasn't texted me back since.
I don't think he will change is why I don't want to entertain the idea of us again, no matter how much I still want him.
I want to be able to talk to him without anger, I want to be able to forgive him. When I talked to him I was angry and deeply saddened by how little he valued me in our relationship.
How do I forgive him? Why do I still want him even though he hurt me? We were friends for a year before we dated.