My problem is, despite not speaking to him, not seeing him (a stroke of luck, as he lives very close by) and trying to date other men, I still feel for him as I did during the whole of our 15 month relationship. I love him more than I should and would willingly spend the rest of my life with him. This break up has been good for me; it has opened my eyes to what went wrong and how to improve those things, and it also helped me rekindle friendships that I carelessly threw aside before.
Of course, I don't want to come between him and his girlfriend. I want him to return because that's what he really wants. I don't much like his girlfriend, she's hurt him once before and has a history of cheating and using men. But she's stuck with him this long, so perhaps it's different this time. Anyway, I don't understand why part of me is glad that he seems happy. I used to be bitter and angry towards his new relationship, but now it's different. Is this a step towards moving on? Acceptance over what has happened? I'm not sure what to make of this.