We dated for 6 months and then we still acted like a couple for several months after that. She broke up with me because she couldn't handle that the fact I had a topless picture of a model. It was disrespectful to her and I got it, I apologized so many times and tried to atone my mistakes. I think I did atone myself and she just wouldn't move on from this. I kept pleading and tried to be as patient as possible. I offered everything for her to be succeed but in the end she moved to another state.
I was completely crushed and devastated but we kept talking and I tried to help her still (stupid me I know). Fast forward 3 months after she left, she came back and visit her family. We met and things were fine the first day and it went bad quickly the second day. Her last day was supposed to be hanging out with me and have dinner, but we fought instead. Then I told her to forget all the fights and just come over and we can go eat. She did and the rest of the night went absolutely fine.
2 weeks after she went back she said she likes someone else, she had been hanging out with this guy 2 times. She asked me whether is it okay? I said it is fine. Then we kind of say unofficially say goodbye and all of those sweet talk of everything that happened between us. Surprisingly she went and texted me every night for several days and she said she wanted to come visit me. She came back to visit and stay with me in January and 95% of our time spent together was fine and no fights at all. Now that she went back again, she started fighting again with me, the thing is about us, we always fight whenever we are not together and are fine whenever we are in person. I just found out that she is jealous of me for being more successful in certain aspects of life. This really hurts me because the way I perceive this is that she can't be supportive or happy for me. Things always went hot and cold between us, one day we love each other and the next day we hate each other.
I can't tell how many times she said to just be done with this and have us not talking anymore. It is extremely difficult for me because she was my first serious relationship. I am so attached to her. I understand it comes off to her as I am needy and desperate. It turns her off. Lately she said she doesn't want to have sex or kiss anymore when she came visit, we ended up doing it anyway even though it wasn't anything like before.
She did one major thing that really destroyed me. She went to her friend's house and slept with him even though she said she would never do that. She said it on the phone just that night when she talked to me.