Long story short... my ex and I broke up back in October. I was sexually assaulted by a guy who I thought was my friend. But overall he just thinks I cheated on him. I was going through a very hard time, and losing him broke me. I never thought I would hit rock bottom.. but I did.
Ever since that happened, I've been seeking help. My ex and I went through battles just arguing back and forth until I decided to walk away from him. We didn't talk for a couple of weeks... until he called me. Then my heart sank once again even if my heart was still in pieces.
My ex and I are still talking. Now it has gotten to the point where I feel we are getting closer than never before. I'm still on guard but I can't help that I'm completely in love with him. We have both made mistakes and for him to not believe me is unbearable. But I've accepted what happened to me and I can only move on from it.
My ex tells me he misses me and that he loves me. Tells me I make him happy and he can't move on. We act like we are together again... especially in front of his friends and family. Even though he told them I cheated on him. But he looks like the fool right? Anyway on Valentine's Day we spent the day together. He bought me flowers and he cooked us a romantic dinner and had candles. I wanted to call him an asshole and ask why he did this and why can't he just have me so we can be together again... instead of wondering
Everytime I try to ask him... I freeze. I don't know what to do. I feel like I should wait to see what happens because both of us have been through so many obstacles together, and after everything we still are coming back to each other.
Am I wasting my time on waiting or should I see what happens. Even if It turns out to be nothing and just a heartbreak again... I know I tried and that's closure for me.