Well, I read her Twitter every day. A few times a day. She hasn't been tweeting much, mostly about video games & fitness. I read her blog. Her tumblr that she hasn't used in months. I found an old blog she was contributing to a few years ago when I googled her name. I noticed she's started a new blog, and I check it every day too, even though there is nothing there! Literally the first thing I do in the morning & before I go to sleep is look her up so I know how she's doing. She blocked me on FB, or I would check that too.
Why can't I stop looking her up? I can't ask my friends, they'll say I'm stalking her or something. But she's on my mind enough that I need to know what she's doing, yet when she tried those one or two times to talk, I just ignored her. But as soon as the call went to voice mail, I looked her up on Twitter to see if she said she was sad. I honestly cannot go a day without knowing how she is & when I don't know, I feel weird, guilty, empty.
What do I do?
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You hate that she isn't begging for you back. You need some reassurance that she's sad without you. She isn't giving that to you so you're bothered. You're bothered that she isn't giving into your desperate need to feel special to her still. You hurt her. You have no right to her feelings any more. You lost that right when that first call went to voicemail. What you're doing is narcissistic and psycho. Not the stalking part but the needing to see if she's sad. That's absolutely horrible. You left her. Live with the decision and leave her alone! Stop lurking her and move on. She sounds better off without you bro