Im reaching out to you as a man who realized how special you are to him. A man who made mistakes. I've been thinking about you a lot recently and how I blew it. Im guilty for taking you for granted and not trying as hard to fix the problems that we had back then. I've looked back, and I understand why you wanted to leave. I can see why you werent the happiest with us, and although there are plenty of things I'd like do over again I know you've given me plenty of chances, and at the time I didn't show you that I was learning from them.
I realize now that I should have put my ego aside and looked at things from your point of view. I couldnt see past my own ego. You were stressing about life at times and even though I was there for you, here you were, trying to work things out with me. I should have appreciated that. I appreciate all the beauty and value that you add to my life and its treasured. I should have stopped fighting, told you that I appreciate you, and talked out everything so we could be able to see eye to eye.
I know you didn't appreciate me calling incessantly at times and tripping at times. How frustrated I made you. I needed to respect your decision to want some space. I'm sorry I made it sound and seem like it was up to you to make me happy. Thats not your job, I realize that its on me to make myself happy. I am a man. I am the musculine edge. I realize that its not just all about me.
I get it now. I get that its not that you may have feelings for me or anything along those lines. I've said to you many times that we can fix the problems we had. I know that by jumping headfirst into a relationship with me, you would be taking a risk. I know you dont want to take the chance that I don t keep my promises and you feel unhappy again because I didn t make the change I said Im go
Im going to make. So I think what you're doing is reasonable.
Looking back on things from your perspective, I can't really blame you. I've said before that I wanted to work things out and start listening, I really meant those words when I said them. But I recognize that you have given me chances to figure out what I needed to do. And as patient as you were with me at times, you had your limit, and I respect your decision.