What should I do? Am I a scumbag?

After a long time of trying to make my fuck buddy my boyfriend I realized it was not going to happen. We had a serious talk and I realized that we will never be in a relationship. We dated briefly but it did not go well. I'm hurt but I understand and respect his decision. Problem is that I made a big deal about trying to be friends. (This was 2 months ago when I thought I still had a chance with him) Now I don't really want to talk to him anymore. We're on friendly terms but every week or so he sends me a message to see how I'm doing. I don't feel like talking to him anymore because I feel like I have nothing to say. I don't initiate texts anymore and I feel a bit awful and hypocritical. It's not that I don't care about him, it's just that it hurts to talk to him. I asked if he wanted to go "no contact" but he said no because he says I'm cool. Sometimes I just want to forget he even happened but I still care about him. Any advice? what should I do?
What should I do? Am I a scumbag?
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