Then we started going out on dates. An nights out. He would Change more wild , and would leave me behind. I felt like I was on my own during night. I felt like he wasn't ready for a relationship. He started saying it. I was so crazy about him that I did avoid it. I fell for him pretty quick.
He upset me on a night out and I felt fed up. Ended it after being humiliated nye. And he was like I love you etc. Then we spoke few days into new year then I cut contact got on with my life without him. Exactly 4 months later , he messages me asking how I am. And apologising for everything. My heart sank.
I never really got over him. I just had to move on as he wasn't fully ready to be with me. He said where have I been and why did I cut him off like he was Indenial almost. He apologised which I accept as I don't want to hate how he treated me for rest of my life.
He said he does care for me. An I said me and him are past but hope he's good. He said 😘😘😘😘
he rang me this morning in the am but I wasn't ready to talk : a part of me will always love him so my emotions are to the surface as I felt like was finally moving on from him. I know he can't be the guy I want but it's so hard to talk to him without those feelings returning. I have met an amazing guy husband material ; but this has messed me a bit