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Yes I do feel the same way. I feel like I could never trust, love or truly go all in with anyone again. My relationship changed me in other ways too. He did such bad stuff to me that I went into a very deep depression and even got PTSD from one thing that happened. I had never in my life been depressed before I met him. Now I've been very depressed for 1.5 years, which was the time when the worst stuff happened + we broke up. I often stay up all night crying and sometimes I can't manage to leave my apartment, or even watch tv, because there are too many things triggering my ptsd out there and just making everything worse. That guy really messed me up and destroyed my life in so many ways. I don't know where to go from here. Time hasn't helped me at all. Talking about it hasn't helped either. Nothing truly helps. I do have feelings of hopelessness a lot.