I'm terrified I will never stop loving my ex?

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We broke up years ago, but he was VERY intense and romantic in his feelings. It was the most passionate relationship I've ever had, when I looked at him my entire body would tingle, and he'd say things to me that I will never forget. We broke up for good reasons, he was very unstable and untrustworthy, but for a year after I broke up with him, he messages me probably 100 times, again saying beautiful things, attempting to just have me talk to him or even reply to be his friend. I pretended I didn't care, because I'm really scared and I'm still in love with him, and I know my self respect is too strong for me to date him again. I'm stuck because he follows me everywhere - I haven't heard from him in months and I look for him everywhere, his car, I flinch when I hear his name, my heart feels like it's going to explode half the time I see someone who looks like him, I constantly search to see if maybe he messaged me again.

I don't know what to do. I want to reach out, because 90% of the time I PRAY that I will hear form him again or bump into him somewhere in public. Should I add him on facebook? message him and just check in? I don't know what to do.
I'm terrified I will never stop loving my ex?
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