My ex and I went through a lot. I helped her out and was there for her while she had a dying parent. We were both there for each other and loved each other so very much. I made a stupid mistake by taking these anti-anxiety pills that i found in a room my sibling use to live in. I found a lot of them. Those pills changed me a lot. In a negative way. I wasn't behaving like my normal nice self. And I didn't realize how much I was changing. So we broke up. I didn't tell her about my drug addiction 9 months after we broke up. I was always too scared to tell her. We were on good terms after we broke up. And we were still on good terms after I told her about my drug addiction. She has a boyfriend now. And she never looks at me. Ever. I still love her a lot. And care bout her so much. I want us to be friends. Why does she not look at me or smile at me like she use to?