"I know that I barely know you and I have a lot of growing to do. I know that we're better off not being together, that we found comfort in each others wounds, and will probably always approach things 180° from one another. But, even with knowing so little, I loved you so much I lost touch with myself.. a pattern I've grown all too familiar with. Thank you for setting me free. Thank you for bringing me into reality, however harsh that transition seemed to affect me. Committment is simply a slippery slope for me... And secrecy triggers all the worst parts of my psyche. The more things changed the more there was no more going back to being open, not when you could close all the doors on our world so readily. I'm not sure why I ever thought I would be granted access with the same mishapen keys.. and doorknobs made of dreams. Even with foregiveness there was still my heart being balanced carelessly on your everything. Trust that requires reassurance is simply distrust by a better name. But I could never blame you, because it was always what you didn't say that had me questioning things. Of course, all I wanted was what I couldnt have... to give love the darkest parts of your soul... And maybe heal the pain you burried too deep to show me. I'm so sorry for asking that of you just because transparency is not a choice for me, sharing any part of yourself should always be voluntary. I wonder how you are.. every day... I would love to see you but I don't really believe that you want to see me. I don't even trust my heart around you yet and it is much stronger than I will ever admit so instead I will just leave you with this.. I promise to send you love from afar always, now and forever, every day. I hope you can feel it, and that it gives you some comfort, courage, and inner freedom, you truly deserve it."