I'm going to the club tomorrow where I met my ex. He was really fucked up, did some pretty bad stuff with cheating and drugs, but was also the most romantic person I've met in my life and I haven't had a day go by where I don't think of him/how he made me feel (weve been broken up for 2 years now.) He messaged me consistently up until about a year ago, where he finally stopped. I was thinking of messaging him or finding a sneaky way to message him saying "Meet me at this club tonight" or "Come to this club" so I can just see him again or bump into him somehow. Should i do it? I haven't contacted him because I'm trying to maintain self respect and always have tried to because he wasn't a good boyfriend back then, but I don't know what else to do because I feel like I literally can not move on or forget him and it's been years. And yes, I have tried to be with another person.