I feel like it's all my fault, had I presented myself better, was funnier, knew more about her culture, was more confident... I could have had her.
I lost all my confidence in life when she said no.
Obviously I'm beating myself up a lot now.
I can't accept it's not personal,
I feel like I am flawed in every single way.
I like her so much...
I don't know why she rejected me, it's killing me that I don't know... I wish I did because I don't want to take it personally.
Does she only date Asians? (She is Asian)
Does she want an older guy ( I am 2 years younger)
Is it because I'm a pathetic dude that's not in her league?
I don't know :(