I'm a train-wreck , I'm a mess, I'm crazy. He always says I'm too good for him, but he doesn't know I hate myself even if I don't show it. I can't accept his love because I don't love myself enough.
Now that I have gained 8 pounds it's even worse, I can't keep a job I can't do anything. I'm stupid and I look like shit, BUT HE STILL LOVES.
Why does he still love me? I think he's crazy, he's amazing and he's the love of my life, but I need time to focus on pulling myself together.
This situation depresses me. I'm scared he will leave me because of the extra weight I gained so I want to leave him first.
Most Helpful Guy
Ok you have obviously been through some shit and are in a dark and vulnerable place so instead of sabotaging something that is actually going right in your life turn to this amazing person and share your pain so he can take care of your heart until your emotionally strong enough to do it yourself. Trust me losing him will only make getting your shit together much more difficult and when you do you then have to deal with the reality that he might be with someone else and it's your fault because you believed the only thing that could be more painful than what your experiencing now was the possibility that he would leave you while your struggling. Trust me every real man wants to be a hero to the woman he loves so explaining your innermost darkest emotions will not ruin anything it will make him realize that it's time to protect you from your own self doubt and replace those voices that are negative with how he sees you through his eyes4
Most Helpful Girl
I was going through the same thing that you are going through, my ex he made me realize why I lef him I told him to be with someone else because he is amazing the most amazing person I've ever met, and a little while after we broke up I realized that I was insecure if some that amazing loves me with all his heart why can't I, I hate to look at my body in the mirror and I wasn't even sure if I was a nice person, I attract a lot of guys but. He made me realize that I deserve the best because I'm the best. If you think that the only way you can solve this problem is to leave him then do so but make sure that you tell him your problem and it's only a brake until you figure things out. He is probably the only that can make you see the beauty within you.1