When we saw each other at work for the first time 3 weeks after, he didn't pay me as much attention as I thought he would, and he barely messages me at all, which makes me feel like I'm not good enough for him. Now I'm finding it hard to eat and I don't really feel anything, because all I want is to be beautiful and to be loved by others. I don't care about my work or job, I just want the love from someone I adore.
I am very obsessed by how I look, and constantly worry about whether I need to reapply makeup, redo my hair etc. But my extreme lows from lack of attention and feeling like I'm not good enough are definitely not normal, my friends don't seem to feel anything this extreme. Any ideas on why this might be and how I can help myself?
Most Helpful Guy
BellePepper has the right advice, here - seek help from a qualified therapist.
It sounds like you are drawing a huge part of your self-esteem from the opinions of others, which is unhealthy for you, especially if its tied into your sexuality like this. The extreme lows and feeling like you are not good enough sound reminiscent of depression to me, but you'd need to meet with someone who is qualified to diagnose.
Most Helpful Girl
Get into therapy. You already know you're not healthy so fix it.