It was very upsetting because we have children together and he has so much to live for besides me. It makes me angry that he would do that to his kids. I talked to him about it, told him that I will always care about him even if we don't end up together and that the kids need him in their lives. I talked to him about how I could just as easily die and he needs to be able to be alone.
He said it was just a spur of the moment thing and he isn't going to actually do anything. But I'm still concerned. He hates therapy and feels it's pointless because he had a bad experience with them as a child. His sister asked me to go to couples therapy just so I can get him to go to a therapist even if I don't plan on staying. The only issue is the next available appointment isn't until July and I feel so trapped. Like I finally got the courage to say how I feel so that we can move foward but I can't move foward. It's frustrating but I'm too afraid to leave because I don't want him to hurt himself. But now I can't stop thinking about his mental stability. I'm not sure what to do.