Will this man ever realise he's lost out on me?

My ex and I were due to marry in 3months. Homestly, I wasn't happy but I didn't hav the courage 2 call it off. We were 2geva only 8 months & it was a long distance r'ship. Our good times lasted first 3months. I wanted more time in getting 2know him but he was adamant on marrying asap & settling down. I agreed. As time went, I realised he had no respect4 me, arguments became frequent & he resorted2 calling me derogatory names each time. Names included "retard", "imbecile." I explained hw I felt but he would say "I hav to call u names because I can't hit a girl; Name calling isn't personal2 me; ur over sensitive." On many occasions, he'd demand a break away. He even used to check out other girls in front of me. He wanted me 2become more modest with my clothing even tho I don't wear revealing clothes. The last few weeks of our break up bcame really bad. I put him first in absolutely everythin, gave him so much, recreated his CV, made lots of effort2 go c him. He was so ungrateful. During this time I was realisin he wasn't ready4 commitment as his decisions didn't consider me. I wasn't goin 2get a proper honeymoon bcoz of his messy finances but he was goin abroad4 a stag. We decided a break for 2wks & 2 days in I created an Instagram a/c. I went2 follow him, I saw that he had liked a girl's pic who was wearin next2 nothin. I felt so hurt. Hypocrite. Next, I made a mistake which I feel so disappointed in myself 4. He'd told me somethin in confidence & in anger, I exposed this secret to his dad. Since then, he has blocked me on wtsapp & doesn't want anythin2 do wiv me. I've told him countless times I'm sorry, but he doesn't want me. I've been texting him quite a lot with abuse & he said I was harrassing him & ignored me after. 1 month down the line, I see that he's enjoying life & been on holiday.
But my only question: will he eva realise what he has lost in me? He'd told me on the day I returned his belongings2 him that other than the mistake I'd made, I was perfect.
Will this man ever realise he's lost out on me?
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