i think there are in the end not that many reasons why we are friends, we have a very similar set of interests and to some degree lifestyles but otherwise we don't have anything in common. i find him attractive and i know that there aren't too many people who are exactly interested in those things that we like but there are sooooooo many things which would be problems and why i think he would be the wrong one. he loves to hang out with girls but i am a jealous type of person, especially since those girls don't like me, he has a bff who looks like a supermodel and who he has known for more than 10 years and i am sure the moment she would say that she likes him he'd jump right at her, etc. but I JUST EFFING CANNOT GET OVER HIM and i am sooo freanking annoyed by myself for that
how can i truly internalize that?