Why am I so sad after my breakup, when I broke up with him?

I'm 21 and he's 25. We were together about 2 years. Our relationship was never easy. He was always so unhealthy, narcissistic and passive and I tried to look past it because I was so blinded by my first love.

He dumped me after a year because I brought up these issues and he didn't want to work on them so he ghosted me. A month later he's dating his coworker but it only lasted a week. 3 months after that we get back together. I know it wasn't the smartest on my end, but being without him pained me so much that I felt I had to have him back and was hopeful he changed. At first everything was great and I saw hope but then he went back down the same emotionally abusive path and I made excuses for him again because I was so scared of getting hurt again from getting dumped.

8 months later, it worsens. The bad in him returned. He was always selfish and always told me he planned eventually moving to the opposite coast for his unrealistic career with or without me and refused a compromise. He is about to move 4 hours away in a month for school and I don't see it being easy considering we can barely get along now. This all hit me one day that I had to take a step back and realize I am settling for something I don't deserve. I'm staying because I am so comfortable and have learned to just deal with it.

So, I call him to break up. It was amicable and to my surprise he took it really well and was nice. He said great things about me and even said he didn't see himself dating again because he wants to dedicate his time to himself and that he felt he couldn't date again after me. I know it's for the best. I was in an empty, unhealthy relationship. We both want different things and I have learned to accept that it wouldn't work. I will always feel strongly for him because he was my first love and taught me so much. If I know it isn't meant to be and I'm free of this, shouldn't I be happy? Why am I so sad?


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  • Your sad because the right decision isn't always the one that you want, it sounds to me he was also slowly realizing who he was and wanted to grow out of it without any other casualties. He cares about you enough to tell you that your right about him, so don't worry about him. He's going to do what he needs to and you should too.

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Most Helpful Girl

  • You're sad because you loved him. It's normal, however, it won't last.
    If he was a shitbag most of the time, imagine how a sweet respectful guy can make you feel. I'm 21, and my boyfriend is 25 as well! So I put myself in your shoes.

    It's not worth it if he was an asshole. We all deserve someone sweet and kind!

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  • It's quite normal to be sad after a break-up even if you're the one who initiated it. There's an empty hole inside you that isn't simply gonna be filled through logic or reasoning just because you know it was the right decision.

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  • Your sad because the head and the heart don't always agree.

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