We worked hard at things but I just couldn't trust her and I didn't feel safe so I was unhappy in the relationship and also the guilt made her upset. So we just fought. But here's the thing she has changed dramatically from the way she used to be before (in a good way.) So here I am we broke up today we truly do love eachother she was devasted to lose me because she never felt the way she feels about me with anyone. And I am devastated as well. She was the person who I chose to be my first girlfriend (I am extremely picky and hard to open up). I spent the night over her house and we slept next to eachother. We both agreed that I need time to heal from what happened in January because it changed the way I view her and the world. I became a bitter person who got annoyed quick.
We agreed that I need to find myself again and to trust and be happy. And we split in her eyes she thinks I will get over her and move on quick. But I don't think that's the case. I want to be with her but I know we need this space. We are going back to college in September what should I do?